It doesn’t matter how you say it or the reason for why you wanna do it. If you don’t want me anymore, then you don’t want me anymore. I told you that you had all of me until you said stop and I guess you said it.
You tell me that deep down in your heart you really do love me, but then the conversation ends with you saying that you don’t want the title of my boyfriend anymore because it will make your life in Canada easier? I just don’t understand. IF you feel that way about me then I want you to have the title. The whole point of the title is so that I know that we are each others. IF you feel that way about me then I don’t understand why you wouldn’t want to be my boyfriend anymore, because nothing will change. We’ll still talk all the time and Skype every night. I just won’t be your girlfriend anymore. You said that it would make things easier if you can’t come back to Australia for a little longer than you’d hoped, but I don’t see what the difference is. No matter the time apart I’ll still wait for you. And it makes me feel that maybe you DON’T want to be with just me anymore and that you’ve already made your decision to stay in Canada and are just letting me down easy. I don’t see what difference this is going to make, because if people ask me if I’m single I’m still gonna say no because i wont feel like I am because I have you, just like before. But now I don’t know if I could say the same thing about you. Now that you don’t have me standing in your way does that mean that I won’t be the first thing in your head when the opportunity to sleep with someone else arises. You can just think, “Well, Ive got Sarah in Australia, but she’s not my girlfriend anymore so I can do whatever I want”. IF YOU DON”T WANT TO BE WITH ME ANYMORE THEN JUST SAY IT. COMPLETELY. You can’t just pick and choose what you want from me. Its not like you’d have to face me everyday after breaking my heart, you can just go on and live your life in Canada. You could just wash your hands of me and cease all contact with me. It’s bad enough having you, but you being in Canada. I couldn’t handle you being in Canada and not having you. It doesn’t make any sense to me because when you read that last part it just looks like you don’t want to be with me anymore. Full stop.
“People say I love you all the time - when they say, ‘take an umbrella, it’s raining,’ or ‘hurry back,’ or even ‘watch out, you’ll break your neck.’ There are hundreds of ways of wording it - you just have to listen for it, my dear.”—The Curious Savage (John Patrick)
“The beginning of love is the will to let those we love be perfectly themselves, the resolution not to twist them to fit our own image. If in loving them we do not love what they are, but only their potential likeness to ourselves, then we do not love them: we only love the reflection of ourselves we find in them.”—